I’m back

I never intended to be gone for so long.  I cannot quiet figure out what kept me away.  We have been busy this summer, nothing major just busy.  We had Tball, the garden, the animals, vacation, & family.  I think part of the reason for my hiatus was the whole In Vitro thing.  We tried and failed once and I simply needed to move on and live my life without thinking.  Perhaps I got in a rut, I don’t know but I feel okay, content, & happy now.  HL was home and we had fun, worked a lot outdoors, & accomplished a lot of things on our to do list.  We made a few trips and purchased new additions to our farm which I will share tomorrow.  We also purchased HL a new toy.  He finally caught the Harley fever again and indulged this time.  He loves it, he’s happy, so I’m happy but not thrilled to be on the back of the thing.  This morning Makinlee and I drove him to the airport and said goodbye again for the next 5 weeks.  All 3 of us were teary eyed.  The oilfield life is hard.  I’m not very happy about him leaving for work this time after the bombing in Jakarta which is where he is now and he is living in a Ritz Carlton which is one of the buildings they bombed.  Not the same one he lives in but too close for comfort.  I’m scared for him, for us.  Hopefully, they will finish this well fast and move to the Philippines sooner than expected.

I start my medications on the 27th again for our first attempt at FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer).  I will have to do the first phase of it alone.  I hope my body will corporate and allow HL to get home in time for the actual transfer.  It would be weird if I got pregnant and he was in another country. What a story we could tell.

I will spend tonight relaxing and trying to get the next 5 weeks on my calender filled in and organized.  A great friend of mine, Beth, took Makinlee for the night to let me unwind and have a little time to wallow in self pity.  Not that I do much of that but tonight I need to crawl on the couch with a good book and chill while I wait for the call that HL made it to work safely.